Today is the eleventh day of September. This is the eleventh
year after the year so many lives were changed. It's no small thing.
It's a little on the poignant side for me to be in Texas
again today. I was here, eleven years ago, but in another town.
I can remember the grappling feeling in my brain--trying to
both grasp the reality of the situation and simultaneously to reject it. The
deep, reeling, desperate, shallow-breathed, humanity of the moment as the
second plane hit the south tower of the world trade center. Instantaneous overwhelming
grief for individuals I didn't know and for those that knew them, empathy for
their loss, great desperate, selfish, soul-straining prayers that none of the
loss I was irrationally mourning might be mine.
And then to spend the rest of the day in wonder that the
entire world hadn't stopped. To feel like the carrying on of life was to tap-dance
on a land mine. Wondering if more was to come, or if it was okay to let the initial
shock take over altogether and resonate. It takes energy. It takes strength to absorb
a blow, and if more are coming, you might need that strength for something else.
By the grace and mercy of God none of the grief was mine in
a direct personal sense, such as that of losing a loved one. But we all were
attacked that day. Every American and everyone else. Because it didn't matter
who was on those planes, or who was in those towers. Many who were killed and
hurt were not Americans. It was evil. It was hatred. And it was ignorance. We
all suffer for these. Each one of us.
I like the photo at the top of the blog today. It's not the
burning towers, the masses running through streets, their lives chased by the debris
of falling buildings and burning bodies. It's strength and it's hope. It's
carrying on. It's not giving up. It's not giving in. And it's gratitude.
This is a deeply personal thing for me. This date will
always elicit strong feelings in me. I took the attacks very personally,
because I understood very well the blanket nature of the hate and the ignorance
that drove the attack.
And I took it personally because I think of myself as a
"Stateless Ambassador." I don't feel like I belong to any one place,
like I have only one home. I find "home" on both sides of the Earth,
and I feel I could find it almost anywhere. We are all human. We were all
attacked. If we can all be made equal in attack, we should all be free to love
one another and to be loved by one another. We are all human. We all belong to
each of us. That's why this day means so much to me. It's not only because I'm
American, but because I'm human. Those who chose to attack could have chosen to
love.
It's bewildering to me, honestly, how lines on a map can divide
hearts and minds. How those who believe religiously in Love can practice such indiscriminate
hate.
Father, forgive them, and please help me to do the same.
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